Keeper of Time

“O Lord of lords, O refuge of the worlds, please be gracious to me. I cannot keep my balance seeing thus Your blazing deathlike faces and awful teeth…

All the sons of Dhrtarastra along with their allied kings and all our soldiers are rushing into Your mouths, their heads smashed by Your fearful teeth. …

O Visnu, I see You devouring all people in Your flaming mouths and covering the universe with Your immeasurable rays. Scorching the worlds, You are manifest.

O Lord of lords, so fierce of form, please tell me who You are. I offer my obeisances unto You; please be gracious to me. I do not know what Your mission is, and I desire to hear of it.” Thus spoke Arjuna, the mighty warrior of the Mahabharata.

The Blessed Lord, said: “Time I am, destroyer of the worlds, and I have come to engage all people.”

Bhagavat Gita, Chapter 11 (excerpt)

In the beginning of our friendship, I felt intrigued by and at the same time was a little weary of the complexity of Loki’s nature as underneath His charming, sly demeanour smothered intense power, similar to a volcano. Even so, Loki also embodied a vast stillness as well as compassion and love that radiated a warm feeling of safety. More than once I asked Loki who He really was. Mostly he would give me a childlike smirk and remain silent. Even though Loki can be very outspoken, He often prefers to convey information in a roundabout way, through stories and images, because He wants me to discover my own answers through meditation and contemplation. On one occasion though, Loki offered me a glimpse of something deep and vast, beyond my comprehension, and gave me a straight answer to said question:

“I am the Keeper of Time.”

“The keeper of time?” In reply He brought images of His three children to my mind: Jormungand, Fenrir and Hel. I asked Him to elaborate on this and He answered that these three represent aspects of Time, the destroyer of all things. I wished to know more, but He just left me to ponder over it.

A short while after, Loki did take me on a journey to meet two of His children – Fenrir and Hel. While being in Hela’s realm He also revealed a form of Himself that I had not encountered before – as the “conquerer of death”, He appeared as a God embracing His consort on a field of corpses surrounded by shrieking vultures. As I wished to know more about the conquerer of death, Loki nudged me to deepen my knowledge of Lord Shiva and His different aspects. Shiva is traditionally known by 108 names that relate to the God’s multifarious aspects. It did not come as a surprise to discover one of his manifestations is Mahakala (Lord of Time) and another one is Kalantaka (or Mritunjaya), the conquerer of death. What struck me was that Mahakala’s description/depiction matched perfectly the form that Loki had revealed to me in Hela’s realm (except that Loki did not appear in a “frightening” form with four arms and three eyes, but in the form that I am used to. The arms, eyes and weapons that Hindu deities are depicted with symbolise the powers of the deity described, rather than the actual appearance of the Goddess/God).

According to Shaktisamgama Tantra, the male spouse of Mahakali is the outwardly frightening Mahakala. Mahakala is described as having four arms and three eyes, and the brilliance of 10,000,000 black fires of dissolution. He dwells in the midst of eight cremation grounds, is adorned with eight skulls, holding a trident, a damaru, a sword and a kharpa in his hands. His is a beautiful body adorned with ashes from the cremation ground, seated on corpses he dallies with the beautiful Kalika (his consort), surrounded by numbers of loudly shrieking vultures and jackals in a deserted place.

Both Mahakala and Kali/Kalika represent the ultimate destructive power and are not bound by any rules or regulations. They have the power to dissolve even time and space into themselves and are responsible for the dissolution of the universe at the end of each age. They are also responsible for annihilating great evils and demons when other gods, Devas and even Trimurtis fail to do so. Mahakala and Kali annihilate men, women, children, animals, the world and the entire universe without mercy because they are Time in the personified form. Time is not bound by anything and Time does not show mercy, nor does it wait for anything or anyone.


As Kalantaka (or Mritunjaya) Shiva appears as the Conqueror of Time and Death itself. Both Kalantaka and Mahakala ultimately transcend bondage, not only from the material universe but also from the illusion of time. Thus they help us to transcend the most prominent fear of our finite existence – the fear of death – and also the concept of time. Shiva is ever-transcending and therefore He masters and controls time. There is another, even fiercer form of Shiva who I encountered when meditating on Fenrir and His connection to time, but it would be too lengthy to include this in this post.

While contemplating the term Keeper of Time, another God came to my mind, who is known as Shani in India – we know Him as Saturn or Kronos in the Western world. In India Shani is feared by people who wish to enjoy the pleasures of material life, while He is revered by spiritual seekers of the ultimate truth, because His influence and blessings free us from bondage and allow us to go beyond maya or illusion (Maya/illusion does not mean that our world is not real, it rather points out that we bind and limit ourselves by the thought patterns and beliefs we create. Saturn, Shiva, Loki and Rudra are all God’s who have the tendency to break these patterns and free us of our self-created illusions.)*

(In India) We all pray to the Cosmic Gods, “Please come and bless us, bless us.” But to Shani, or Saturn, we say, “Please, please, remain away from us, remain away!” He is also a god, but we pray to him to remain away from us. Why? Because Shani brings renunciation.

In India, people do not do anything sacred on Saturday (Saturnday), because they are afraid that Shani will cast his glance upon them. They feel that the best thing is to pray to other gods, “Please come and bless us.” To Shani they pray, “Please, please, remain away from us!”

This is our human desire. But Shani comes and gives us renunciation. He creates conditions of human hardship and imposes austerity on us. He even takes our dearest ones away from us. Ordinary human beings will find it hard to embrace this kind of deprivation. But when a seeker wants to reach the Highest, he asks Shani and Rudra, another cosmic god, to expedite the journey toward the transcendental Goal. He prays that they will do their divine work and cut all attachment. Shani and Rudra want us to be freed from the meshes of ignorance. That is why they constantly strive for perfection in and through us. It is precisely because we are fond of living in ignorance that we human beings are afraid of Rudra and Shani. (The dance of the cosmic Gods, Sri Chinmoy)

Shani is the son of Surya, and Suryaputra is also Shani’s name.


I found it remarkable that in one of the Tantric texts, there is a hymn to a God called Mahakala Shani Mritunjaya (Kalantaka), a personification of Lord Shiva that identifies Mahakala with Shani (Saturn) as well as Mritunjaya. In a conversation between the God and the Goddess, she desires to learn more about Him, and also reveals the virtue of His blessings:

The Goddess said, “Tell me about your special Mahakala form. Relate the hymn of praise to Shani Mrityunjaya, who gives freedom from time, bestows immortality, destroys untimely disease and give the Shani mantra particular to this hymn!”

In any description the Gods connected to Time are frightening and mostly feared by people. Shani and Rudra are even said to bring calamities upon those who are not ready or willing to give up attachment. In my experience Loki is just like that. He seems to be an inconvenient God, because He stirs up all those things that keep us in bondage. His “blessings” can be unpleasant, painful and chaotic. So most people would probably rather not have Him in their life. However, if we open ourselves to the Truth and cry for illumination of our limited existence, if we really long for the freedom of earthly bondage, then it is Loki, Shani, Shiva or Rudra who come to our aid. Because this is what Light does, it illumines old, outdated beliefs and illusions we carry about ourselves and the world. If you dwell in a dark room, unaware of what it holds, you might be surprised of what you find when somebody comes along and turns on the light. You might find your room full of rubbish and now, since the lights are on, you are forced to deal with it all. This is unpleasant for most of us.

In my experience, Loki is quick-witted and not willing to spend time with those who indulge in their own bondage. When Loki offers us a hand with the “clean up”, He expects sincerity and dedication, because He offers quick and radical transformation. His blessings can bring great freedom, but if not alert and on guard, they can throw your life into chaos and destroy you just as well. Sincerity can save you a great deal of trouble when dealing with Him, and when He offers His love and compassion, the blessings one receives are far greater than one could imagine.

*as well as their female counterparts, the manifestations of Adi Shakti, who are the most powerful forces when it comes to destroying human ignorance. The Goddesses Kali and Durga are revered and feared for these very reasons.



Conversations with the God of Change

Loki is a caring and compassionate guardian for those He loves, and sometimes He prefers to teach through tales and stories, because He likes words, He likes to express Himself and He likes to talk – especially if you ask the right questions … and my inner child has a lot of questions. So here is a little conversation that poured out of my pen one night – a conversation between my inner child and her – uhm – Guardian God, in this case, not Guardian Angel – about God, transformation, suffering, free will and ultimate freedom. 

The warm breeze brushed over her cheeks, ruffling her hair and his hand gently tucked the loose strands behind her ear. Lokelani’s* head rested in Loki’s lap, and she opened her eyes to look up at him when she felt his touch. Loki gave her a warm, comforting smile. The girl’s eyes studied his face for a while before she muttered, “You are nothing like we humans imagine you to be.” Loki raised an eyebrow. “Would you care to elaborate on this?” “Well, you know, I read a lot of things about you. Myths and stories. Most of us do not see you as a benevolent God. Some even see you as downright -” she hesitated before she said, “evil.” He simply looked at Lokelani, the corners of his mouth turning ever so slightly upwards, while he waited for her to continue. “Some see you as a trickster, as someone who takes advantage of others and is not necessarily trustworthy. Others imagine you as dominant, demanding, unpredictable, dangerous, destructive and chaotic” She smiled apologatically, “Sounds pretty bad, I know.” Loki smirked. “Sounds intriguing. So, tell me, why would that not be in accordance with who I am?” He asked, the smile still on his face and his eyes on hers. She sighed, “Because you are loving, compassionate, tender-hearted and kind. You have never done anything to harm me, you always supported me and helped me. It feels like everything you do, you do out of love.” “Because you let me” he said. “What do you mean?” Loki combed his fingers through her hair. “I am all those things humans imagine me to be” he said, “and much more. I am inconceivable to the human mind. Whatever one needs from me to serve me, I will give. If they want me to be dominant, even brutal, I will be. I will break them open if necessary and expose them to face their own ignorance. But, eventually, they will find my compassion.” “Then why have you been showing me only kindness?” “Because it is what you ask from me, and what you give. You are willing to let me mould you, transform you the way I choose. You surrender to me not out of fear or passion, but out of love. To a heart that sees only love and kindness in me, I give exactly what it needs to love me more. A teacher does not and cannot only make demands on a student. It is a reciprocal relationship. He gives according to the student’s needs, so that the student can grow, otherwise he would not make a good teacher. The heart is humble, because love never seeks to control and I cannot counter humility with anything else but love. Those who approach me with their heart, will find in me a trustworthy friend, an affectionate lover or a protective parent – or all of the above. Those who fear me, will find a God they can fear. Those who want to be dominated by me, will find me that way.” “This explanation gives shapeshifter a whole new meaning” Lokelani said and Loki chuckled softly. “The ones who are willing to love me, are willing to transform their nature. They aspire to free themselves from the bondage of the lower realms. When you chose me as your God, you gave me permission to wreak you exactly the way you need to achieve that goal.” “Whoa, wait, the human in me has a bit of trouble keeping up here … I – chose you as my God?” A smug smile appeared on his face as he took in Lokelani’s perplexed facial expression. “Well, more or less consciously,” he said in the soft voice, filled with patience, that he always used when he wanted her to pay attention. “You were born to be under my protection or as you would say, you belong with me.” Lokelani’s gaze wandered up to the clear blue sky above and it took a moment before she asked, “So what does that mean exactly?” There was a pause. “It means that you are mine and no matter where in the nine realms you go, there is no escape from my grasp,” Loki whispered in a deep growl, teasing her, and earned himself an affectionate punch in his side. “Well, at least I chose a God with a sense of humour,” Lokelani growled back. “God always has a sense of humour, it is your human minds that imagine him strict and terrifying. For some reason quite a few of you indulge in the need to be punished.” “Because we are so imperfect and impure!” she blurted out and Loki gave her a stern look. “Tell me, Lokelani, where did that belief come from? God? I doubt it. If you ever say or think that about yourself again, I will definitely punish you.” Lokelani pulled off a pretend fearful expression which made Loki laugh, but he fell silent when he sensed her growing serious. “What does it really mean, Loki, that I belong with you?” She asked again. “Are you concerned that you could end up as my eternal slave?” She frowned. “I just do not wish to be controlled by anyone anymore.” “And, have I ever tried that? To control you?” Lokelani shook her head, still there was this nagging little voice in her head. “You still doubt me.” Loki voiced her thoughts. “I do not wish to doubt you, yet I have this feeling of impending doom somewhere in the back of my mind. That you will turn on me, when I served my purpose.” As soon as the words were out, she regretted them. Loki had shown her nothing but kindness, affection and love. How could she say anything hurtful to him? The girl averted her eyes and sat up and Loki carefully placed his arms around her. “I know your feelings. I am aware of your doubt, Lokelani, there is no need to be ashamed to admit it.” She closed her eyes and felt his magic flowing around her soothingly. After all they had been through together, there was still doubt in her mind. Doubt that he would do something to hurt her, control her, to use her for his own advantage and then – abandon her. “Questioning your beliefs is good. It keeps you on your toes, never lets you take things for granted. But your doubt stems from fear. You need not fear me and you must not doubt yourself. All souls who take a body on Midgard, come from respective realms and thus are connected to different aspects of God. You came from my “family”, that is why you belong with me. My consciousness is more prominent in those who come from my family, so my consciousness is more prominent in you. This is what it means.” Then he added lightly, “I am sorry to break it to you, flower, but I fear that you will be stuck with me as your God for a long time, and I do not wish to unsettle your mind by mentioning words like – eternity.” His lightness eased her thoughts a little and Lokelani looked up at him, responding to Loki’s mischevious grin with a sweet smile. “Bound eternally to the God of Chaos … Well, my life’s pretty messed up now – but I guess, it could be worse.” He furrowed His brow, “How could it be?” “Well, I could be bound to the God of Thunder … that would be – far too noisy!” They laughed. “You are more than bound to me”, Loki said and placed a fatherly kiss on the top of her head, “You are part of me.”

Lokelani closed her eyes and Loki felt her mood shift. “Would you like to tell me what is bothering you now?” “You know what it is, you read my mind like an open book.” “Does it not make you feel better, when you can talk about it?” The girl sighed and nodded, she could not hide anything from Loki, because he understood her in ways that she could not fathom. “Things I have been through, that have been hurtful and heart-breaking … traumatising …” she started and broke off, so Loki continued. “Have also made you grow, when you learned to accept them. They broke your ego, broke you open so you could heal”, he explained. “But they hurt!” “Because you were clinging onto your ideas of how life has to be. It is your attachment of wanting things in your own way, trying to control life, that makes you suffer. Life is not meant to be full of suffering, but as long as you dwell in polarities it will be.” Lokelani kept her eyes closed and whispered, “I was a child when I was raped. Tell me, was that just a “lesson” to break my ego?” It was Loki’s turn to heave a sigh and he pulled her closer, so that she was sitting on his lap. “Are you blaming me for letting these things happen to you?” She turned to face him. Loki searched her eyes and Lokelani shook her head. “I am not. I would simply like to understand why or how things like this happen to innocent children. How can God be so cruel?” His magic flowed around her in a gentle, warm embrace. “I am sorry” he whispered as he opened himself to her and let Lokelani see that all the pain she had endured in her life, Loki himself had felt it in exactly the same way. He suffered inside her suffering. “I wish nothing more for you than to be happy.” His voice was soft and comforting. “It is not in my nature to torture those I love, nor do I enjoy seeing them hurt. However, there are experiences I cannot intervene with, because of certain laws. And even though my nature is to break old worlds, so that the truth can shine brightly, it does not mean that my actions have no consequences for me. I experience things in and through you and rest assured that I did not just sit and watch when you suffered. There are laws in this universe that are beyond the understanding of the mind and I cannot make you comprehend the reasons why innocent creatures suffer like they do. I can only assure you that as a God I am not aloof to your suffering, I am going through it with you.” Lokelani felt the sincerity of his words. “The path of the God you belong to is not an easy path to tread on, because it forces you to face all those things inside yourself that keep you from seeing the truth. The true nature of your own being. All the things that keep you bound in darkness. My path is a path of transformation. It is the path of the ultimate Truth, and I will break you again, and again, as long as you hold wrong beliefs about yourself. But never doubt my love for you, Lokelani, never doubt my love for you.” She nestled closer to him, letting his magic shelter her, while Loki continued. “Someone gave humans a free will. It is like a game and one of the rules is that the Gods do not have the right to simply interfere whenever they see fit. We too are bound to laws.” Loki loosened his embrace as he felt her relax, and she leaned against his chest and listened to his heart for a while. “So, you felt the pain that I went through?” “I feel everything you go through. The more conscious you are of me, the more you surrender to me, the better I can mend things. If you can see pain as an experience I am having in and through you, it would make it easier for you. Those who can surrender to me will walk this path more easily, because I can hold on to them and catch them before they fall.” “Do I have to give up my free will if I surrender to you?” “You will align your free will with something higher, that guides you through life from a deeper wisdom. Life is like a river. Most people stand in the water fighting against the current, exhausting themselves and not getting anywhere. Then there are the ones who swim against the current, struggling hard to get upstream, yet they mostly stay in the same place. And then there is a third kind, who give up the struggle and let themselves be carried by the current, unafraid and ready to face whatever looms around the next corner. It could be a waterfall and you could fall to your doom. Yet, if these people can keep their faith and surrender, there will be no doom. They will go down the waterfall and emerge as something new, completely transformed.” “So, it is how we use our free will that determines the flow of our life.” He nodded. Lokelani pulled away to be able to look into his eyes. “That does not leave me much choice, does it? If I do not surrender, I will suffer?” Loki laughed softly. “It is not quite as black and white as your mind perceives it. Surrender is not something you do out of fear, or to avoid punishment. It is something that grows from love, from devotion. Your love for me and my love for you. Surrender means your becoming part and parcel of my reality, your oneness with me. You will not loose anything. You will only expand into something vaster, deeper and higher. Like a drop entering into the ocean. The drop does not loose its identity, it only becomes something much larger than it was before.” “Then, why am I afraid?” “Because you still identify with your finite consciousness, with duality, with your ego – and this is what I break, when I break you. Because I long to set you free.” Loki paused for a moment, before he said, “You know you belong with me?” She nodded. “Can you feel my love for you?” She nodded again. “Good. I claim you as my own, because I know you are part of me. One day you will be able to do the same. You will be able to claim me as your very own. Then there will be no more doubt, no more inferiority or insecurity, no more separation. Then you will know who you truly are and who I am. You will cast off your earthly, finite shackles and gain true freedom.”


*Lokelani is a Hawaiian name and is not related to Loki’s name. He likes to use this name, or simply “flower”, when he refers to my inner child.

Sigyn and Loki

If you love somebody – set them free! (Sting)

Like a child Sigyn exists inside her heart and has a pure, innocent beauty. Sigyn can be mild, sweet, almost fragile like a butterfly, yet one should not be fooled by her appearance and dismiss Her as weak, because this Goddess holds a power that is able to pacify an almost uncontrollable God. Sigyn is Loki’s balance, the power that gives Him direction and focus, while Loki is the fire that fuels Sigyn’s love. She is the stable strength of peace that makes Loki’s force of transformation one that brings lasting benefits.

It is nonsense says prudence
It is what it is says love

It is calamity says calculation, it is nothing but pain says fear,
it is hopeless says reason
It is what it is says love

It is ridiculous says pride, it is foolish says caution,
it is impossible says experience
It is what it is says love

(Erich Fried)

Loki and Sigyn’s relationship is uniquely beautiful as it is one of true equality and mutual acceptance. They compliment each other perfectly. They are completely one with each other. It is lovely to experience the untameable Loki becoming very lamb-like and sweet in Sigyn’s presence. This powerful force that pacifies Loki’s all-consuming flames and channels His fire so that it can give comfort and warmth, is none other than love. Sigyn loves Him, She does not control Him. Love never does.

Sigyn’s love for Loki is sincere, pristine and deep. I believe, that, if there is one true devotee of Loki, it is Sigyn. She reveres Him for all that He is and is ready to offer Him everything She has, and she does it with a sweetness and devotion that makes my heart ache. In turn, Loki offers Her all He has and all He is, because He really sees her as His equal. The God has a deep respect and love for Her and finds comfort in Sigyn as much as She finds fulfillment in Him. Their relationship has everything a healthy relationship should have, and both, Sigyn and Loki, offer a love that is all-embracing, unconditional and pure like a parent’s love for a child to those who are open for it. In my opinion they make the perfect parents as they teach the importance of setting boundaries,  to have faith and be true to oneself, be sincere and live an authentic life.


I have come to know Loki as an aspect of God that is beyond good or evil, one who works to awaken humanity to a new freedom and one who allows us to go beyond duality. And I believe that when Loki appears in our life, so does Sigyn. It is a natural balance as both of them embody aspects of the other. On the highest level, they are the oneness in duality, never really separate. Loki breaks us open so that we can see what needs to change, so that we learn to forgive, forget, love and live in compassion. If we allow ourselves to stay open, Sigyn fills the new space with her love and helps us to take the step from our basic egoistic needs up into the centre of our heart, so we can experience love, compassion and oneness.

Loki and Sigyn know illusion and bondage like no other and can help us achieve ultimate freedom from both. Maybe this is the reason they ended up in that cave after all, to show us how to free ourselves from our self-imposed fetters, gained through our own deeds, and how to keep our faith even when treated unjustly? Maybe they ended up in bondage, because they represent a freedom that humanity could not be allowed to have – until now? The freedom to question the ones in charge, to speak and search for the truth, love the truth and live authentically? 

Loki is a God who asks us to abandon our victim mentality and take responsibility for everything that happens in our life. He urges us to live our dreams, reach for the stars and find the highest Truth. Believe in ourselves. Sigyn gives us the courage to forgive, keep the faith and move ahead into the unknown. Forgiveness is a quality Sigyn, as well as Loki offer, and it is really a tool to set us free. As long as we hold on to unforgiven hurt, we can never truly be free. It is not those who hurt us that keep us bound, it is we who bind us in the prison of resentment and bitterness. A great freedom lies in the ability to forgive ourselves and others. 

As human beings we are blessed with free will. We can use it to pursue our desires, attachments and other worldly pleasures or we can use it to expand our consciousness and devote our lives to seek spiritual freedom. Loki is the one who teaches us that free will comes with responsibility and consequences (the law of karma), Sigyn shows us that through detachment, divine love and devotion we can surrender to the will of our Higher Self and thus transcend the fetters of earthly bondage (karma).  There is no greater freedom, than to live in the freedom of the soul.

Meditation and Inner Peace

If you can truly love yourself, if you are at peace with yourself, then nothing will be able to disturb you.

I have read that if you encounter Loki in an uncontrollable mood, it helps to call on certain deities to calm him or control Him. Some advise to call on Thor, others on Loki’s mother, Laufey. If you not only wish to pacify Him, but also learn about Him, I would advise to call on Sigyn (provided you call on her with the love and respect she deserves – as any disrespect towards Sigyn might just put Loki in a bad mood).

I did not know much about Sigyn, but judging by the feelings Loki carries for her, I figured that she knows Him better than anybody. And she does. Loki is incredibly talented at letting things get out of control, and I called on Sigyn, not so much to control Him, but rather to learn how to respond when life becomes too chaotic. Indeed, a very practical skill in today’s world! A world where you are often faced with things you cannot control or stressful, overwhelming situations.

In my experience of Loki, He is very loving and affectionate, yet He can have the all-consuming intensity of a wildfire when He wants your attention and the force of an earthquake when He breaks your old beliefs. With Sigyn’s presence, it feels like sitting in the eye of the hurricane. Everything is peacefully calm amidst complete disaster. Now I realise why (right from the start of our friendship) Loki has been asking me to meditate more on my heart and to focus on peace – to be able to bear His presence and not get consumed or distracted by His force. I still have a long way to go and am very grateful to Sigyn for her support!

Sigyn encourages me to still my mind, make it tranquil and to go deep within to touch the place inside my heart that is all peace. Mediation is the key. The more peace we have, the easier it will be to deal with outer circumstances.

Peace is the only solid strength we truly possess.

The greatest misfortune that can come to a human being is to lose his inner peace. No outer force can rob him of it. It is his own thoughts, his own actions, that rob him of it. (Sri Chinmoy)

Some see Loki’s force in the craziness of today’s fast-paced, chaotic world. If this is true, then Sigyn’s force is the answer to survival in this world – we need inner peace. Sigyn’s peace embraces the chaos to bring it back into balance. She does not control. She loves. Love embraces and accepts. Maybe Loki wreaks havoc in our world, because we so direly try to control everyhting, instead of simply accepting things the way they are, expanding our consciousness and opening our hearts to love.

Peace is love universal. Peace is power transcendental. Peace is the harmonious control of life. It is vibrant with life-energy. It is a power that easily transcends all our worldly knowledge. Yet it is not separate from our earthly existence. Peace is eternal. 

Our greatest protection lies not in our material achievements and resources. All the treasure of the world is emptiness to our divine soul. Our greatest protection lies in our soul’s communion with the all-nourishing and all-fulfilling Peace. Our soul lives in Peace and lives for Peace. If we live a life of peace, we are ever enriched and never impoverished. Unhorizoned is our inner peace; like the boundless sky, it encompasses all. 

(Sri Chinmoy)

Unifying Polarities

Everything in this creation is ruled by duality. It is a necessary law that we cannot escape, yet we can, with awareness and acceptance, live within it in a state of balance. Like the couple of Shiva and Parvati, Loki and Sigyn can help us unify polarities and return to our natural state of oneness with the source – our Higher Self. In this time of transition, when a new paradigm of wholeness is blossoming, Loki breaks open our belief patterns based on polarities of good and evil, darkness and light, truth and falsehood etc. and Sigyn embraces us with her love. Together they support us in moving beyond duality into a state of wholeness.

Sigyn – Goddess of Divine Victory?

The love of power tries to control, the power of love sets us free. Love is indeed the only power that brings true freedom.

This is my rather humble attempt to write about this complex Goddess, who embodies (in my eyes) the Victory of the Divine over ignorance. Even though Sigyn has only recently entered my life, I realise that Loki and Her cannot really be separated. They work as one. Sigyn’s main aspect is probably Love, but as mentioned above, She is much more complex than that – She is Innocence, Sweetness, Acceptance, Forgiveness, Compassion, Faith, Loyalty, Peace, Strength, Transcendence of Suffering, Freedom from Illusion/Attachment, … you see. It’s not that easy. She is a child, a loyal wife, a warrior and a wise woman all in one form. 

Not much is known about Sigyn, the Goddess of Fidelity, who is often regarded simply as Loki’s loyal wife, sometimes even as weak or submissive and She is frequently dismissed as a minor, insignificant Goddess. Sigyn is probably best known for her role in Loki’s binding:

After the Gods caught Loki, they brought him and his family (Sigyn and their two sons) to a cave, where they turned one of his sons into a wolf, that promptly killed his brother, scattering the entrails across the cave floor. The Gods then used the entrails of Loki’s slain son to bind him to three rocks, by turning them into chains. The Goddess Skadi placed a poisonous snake above his head, in such a manner that the venom would drip on Loki’s face and burn his eyes. Sigyn, his faithful wife, stayed by Loki’s side, holding a bowl above his head to catch the poison from the snake’s mouth. But ever so often she would need to empty the bowl at which point the drops fall onto the God’s face and make him to writhe in pain, causing earthquakes on Midgard, the world of humanity. Sigyn is said to stay with Loki in the cave until Ragnarok, the dissolution of the cosmos, which Loki will bring about at the end of time.

After the ordeal in the cave – How could anyone possibly consider Sigyn to be weak? Sigyn’s story is one of remarkable inner strength, as even when she could have surrendered to being a victim of circumstances, Sigyn consciously chose to sacrifice her freedom and stay with Loki driven by her love for Him. 

Sigyn’s name derives from the old norse word sigr “victory” and vina “female friend” and is often translated as “victorious friend” or “victorious girlfriend/woman” which also does not make Her sound like a victim!

Nothing concrete is known about the Goddess’ relations, some believe Her to be Odin’s daughter (given that one of Odin’s kennings is “Father of Victory” and also because Loki is Odin’s blood brother and a bond with Odin’s daughter would seem only natural), while others feel that Sigyn has a strong connection to Vanaheim and was raised by the peace-loving God Njord as a foster daughter. Where apparently Loki met Her first, when She was still a little girl. By Her devotees She is described as appearing either in form of a young girl, beautiful Goddess or as a strong woman, a mother who is past the ordeal of loosing her children.

Sigyn – Love, devotion, surrender and transcendence of suffering

Hurt people hurt people.
That’s how pain patterns get passed on,
generation after generation.
Break the chain today.
Meet anger with sympathy,
contempt with compassion,
cruelty with kindness.
Greet grimaces with smiles.
Forgive and forget
about finding fault.
Love is the weapon of the future.
(Yehuda Berg)

In my own experience of Sigyn, She is just as beautiful and complex as Her counterpart – Loki – and they are truly one and inseperable.

Loki is the tornado and Sigyn the eye of the storm.

The relationship between Her and Loki (Sigyn and Loki) is so intricate and deep that I could fill books writing about it, yet I will try and focus on the main qualities Sigyn has shown me and is teaching me: Love, devotion, surrender and the strength of  inner Peace.

When Loki’s force of destruction threatens to sweep us off our feet, Sigyn is the force that makes us resilient. She gives us the courage and strength to move forward. This Goddess embodies an unwavering solid power that withstands all adversities – peace – and Sigyn gains this peace from Her unconditional love and devotion to Loki. By loving Him, devoting Herself to Him fully, and finally surrendering her freedom, when She consciously chooses to stay with Loki in the cave until Ragnarok, Sigyn transcends her attachements, expectations, desires, fears and doubts on the strength of Her love. She is not a victim of circumstances, but makes conscious choices. And She knows well that the source of Her strength lies in Loki. (They have an interdependent relationship, which means that Loki needs Sigyn just as much as She needs Him.) Sigyn could turn away and leave Him, because there is nothing that Loki can offer Her to ease Her suffering, She could even blame Him for Her misfortune. But Sigyn does not blame Him. She does not complain. She stays. She takes responsibility. Even under the most difficult circumstances She is true to Her heart and Her love. 

Sigyn and Loki are part and parcel of each other, to me their situation is also symbolic to our dark and light side (in this case Loki represents our darkness, Sigyn the light). To be whole, healthy human beings who can live their full potential, we need to accept our darkness so that it can be transformed through our light.

I believe that Sigyn’s victory is one over the illusion of existence, over suffering, grief and injustice. Ultimately all bondage is an illusion. By acting without attachment, by staying with Loki without expecting a reward, She surrenders to something Higher and goes beyond suffering. 

In the sacred writings of the Bhagavad Gita, Lord Krishna says, “You have the right to act, but not claim the fruit of your actions.” He explains to Arjuna the importance of action in this world, the law of Karma and furthermore gives Arjuna the key to go beyond this very law by devotedly surrendering all actions to Him (Krishna/God), not worrying about results and refraining from attachments to success and failure, thus achieving liberation. This is the basis of Karma Yoga.

In the ancient teachings of Yoga there are four main directions through which a seeker of Truth can attain union with the Highest: Bhakti, Karma, Jnana and Raja Yoga. It was intriguing to find that, while Sigyn embodies the perfect Bhakti, the one who follows the Yoga of Divine Love, She also walks the path of Karma Yoga by acting without expecting a result. 

But I feel that Love is the driving motive behind Her actions. Divine love, as well as devotion and surrender are all qualities of the heart, so Sigyn is a good Goddess to call on if you wish to connect with your heart. 

“What is love? From the spiritual and inner point of view, love is self expansion. Human love binds and is bound. Divine Love expands, enlarges itself. Devotion is the intensity in love, and surrender is the fulfilment of love. Why do we love? We love because at every moment we are pinched with hunger to realise the highest, to feel the inmost, to be consciously one with the universe, with the universal truth, universal light, peace and bliss, and to be completely fulfilled.
How to love? If we love with a view of achieving something from others, then that love is no love. Love means constant self offering on the strength of one’s own inner aspiration.” (Sri Chinmoy)

Sigyn is sweet and lovely like a child just as much as She is a strong, fearless warrior. A peaceful warrior with a relentless spirit. Her victory lies in overcoming adversities, not escaping them. She inspires us to be strong and raise our consciousness beyond limiting beliefs, while at the same time staying open and vulnerable, so that we can forgive ourselves and others, and thus be truly free.

“We are all peaceful warriors in training – learning to live with a peaceful heart and a warrior’s spirit.” (Dan Millman)

Sigyn knows the meaning of suffering very well, yet She consciously chooses not to be a victim of it, not to let it bring Her down. She does not complain and She does not hold bitterness. She forgives, She has compassion, hope and patience.

Personally, I relate to Sigyn as my sister and friend. We are connected through a bond that runs far deeper than my little mind could actually understand and share a love for nature and animals, magical moments, the transient, all things beautiful and fragile and Mother Earth, as well as for powerful nature forces like storms, lightening, waterfalls, oceans and fire. To see the world through Sigyn’s eyes, is to see it with the eyes of a child – everything is a miracle, everything holds magic, light and beauty. This childlike Goddess beholds the world in an innocent, uncorrupted way – she loves a slithering snake just as much as a colourful butterfly.

To see the world in a grain of sand
And heaven in a wild flower
Hold eternity in the palm of your hand
and Infinity in an hour.
(William Blake)

Some of the things that Sigyn teaches:

Sigyn can teach us how to love, in a pure divine way, how to surrender our free will to a Higher Source and thus find ultimate liberation from bondage, not by escaping but accepting whatever life gives us.

She can teach us not only to forgive, but also to forget. To keep our hearts open and realise that ultimately we are all interdependent beings – hurting someone else, is really hurting ourselves.

She can teach us courage and strength in the face of difficulties. Never to give up!

She can teach us to find the source of our power, which lies within our hearts. Deep down within each of us is an ocean of peace that is waiting to be discovered. This solid inner peace is our true strength and power and it will keep us safe from the storms of life.

She encourages us to focus and meditate on our heart, find love, find peace, devote our actions to a Higher goal, with devotion and without expectation. Transcend limiting beliefs and bondage.

Sigyn is a Goddess who also teaches detachment. True detachment is not aloofness or escape from the world…

Detachment is immediate peace. Detachment is wisdom. We are not our creators. Somebody created us. When we can detach ourselves from any person or any object, then we get boundless joy. Detachment is the wisdom-light in us that tells us not to be affected by anything that happens. 

When you try to remain detached, you have to feel that it is your wisdom-light that is coming to the fore. Detachment is not an escape from life. Detachment is a way to see or to feel that God knows that what is happening is for the ultimate good of mankind or for the ultimate good of Mother Earth. (Sri Chinmoy)


Agni is the protector of mankind, He is the lord of the house, dwelling in every abode, guest in every home. He despises no man and lives with every family. He is the fire that burns in the hearth and inside the human body. He is the mediator between the Gods and human beings. He is the light that illumines ignorance and He is the spark of Divine Consciousness in all living beings.

This post links to Rudra, Shiva, Agni and Loki which explores the connection between these Gods.

In the sacred Vedic scriptures, Agni is revered as a major God next to Indra (who is the King of the Gods). Agni (in Sanskrit) means “fire” and the God’s nature reflects the primordial powers of this element – to consume, transform and convey. He exists on three levels – on earth as fire, in the atmosphere as lightening and in the sky (heaven) as the sun. Agni is invoked often as He is considered the medium that conveys offerings to the Gods. In the Vedas Agni is described as a mediator between the Gods and human beings, being able to freely travel between the worlds. Later, in the Upanishads, He evolved to represent all transformative energy and knowledge. He represents the immortal existence inside human beings and also the light that dispels darkness, destroys illusion, transforms ignorance and procreates an enlightened state of being. Agni is the the flame of aspiration burning inside every human heart, the inner fire that illumines and lets us go beyond our limitations and bondage in search for the highest knowledge – the knowledge of the Self.

Agni is said to love those who worship Him equally and in turn He is loved by all. He visits every hearth no matter if the family is rich or poor.

Some refer to Agni as the ultimate source of the Hindu trinity – while Shiva takes this role in the Shivapuran when he appears to Lord Brahma and Lord Vishnu as a column of fire and refers to Himself as the creator of all.

Agni is said to be ‘Agrani’ the first principle of thought which manifests as speech and the leader who spreads knowledge. “About the beginning of language or the beginning of human aspiration in the form of language, we know a little. We know that there is a particular pattern that many languages followed. In Sanskrit, the mother of all our Indian languages, A is the first letter of the alphabet as it is in English. Agni is the first and foremost priest and his name starts with A. The beginning of the Rig Veda starts with a hymn to Agni, so the Vedas start with A. Now let us look very briefly at some Western languages. Hebrew begins with aleph and Greek with alpha, the same sound approximately as our A. Latin and the various roman languages derived from it also begin with the letter A. So also do the Germanic languages. In fact, probably all the languages of the Indo-European language groups begin with the sound A and many other language groups also start their alphabet with this sound.
We can be proud of our human oneness. It seems that the first sound that arose from the human consciousness at the very beginning of the awakening of the human race was the sound of ‘a’ symbolised by the letter A.”″

Agni has two forms:

“Jātaveda is the fire that carries the quid-pro-quo offerings to the gods, in which case Agni is light identified with knowledge and with Brahman. “He who knows all creatures”, Agni acts as the divine model for the priest. He is the messenger who carries the oblation from humans to the gods, bringing the Gods to sacrifice, and intercedes between gods and humans (Rig Veda I.26.3). Together with Indra and Soma, Agni is invoked in the Rig Veda more than any other god.
Kravyād is the form of Agni which cremates corpses, the fire of the funeral pyre that triggers the recycling of matter and spirit. In this way, states Shatapatha Brahmana in verse, after one’s death and at the time of cremation, Agni heats up and burns only the body, yet by its heat, one is reborn.”

The word “Agni” is used in many contexts, ranging from the fire in stomach, the cooking fire in a home, the sacrificial fire in an altar, the fire of cremation, the fire of rebirth, the fire in the energetic saps concealed within plants, the atmospheric fire in lightning and the celestial fire in the sun.

Agni’ means fire. This fire refers to the aspiring flame that rises from our inmost being; again, ‘Agni’ also refers to the fire god himself. We are all aspirants; we are all seekers of the infinite Truth. It is we who have to embody Agni, the flame of aspiration, in the inmost recesses of our hearts. We also have to grow upwards with this flame until we become the embodiment of Agni, the fire god himself.

Agni is an Immortal who has taken up his abode with mortals as their guest. He is the domestic priest who rises before the dawn. He is a sage, the divinest among the sages, immediately acquainted with all the forms of worship; the wise director, the successful accomplisher, and the protector of all ceremonies, who enables men to serve the gods in a correct and acceptable manner in cases where they could not do this with their own unaided skill. He is a swift messenger, moving between heaven and earth, commissioned both by gods and men to maintain their mutual communication, to announce to the immortals the hymns, and to convey to them the oblations of their worshippers; or to bring them (the immortals) down from the sky to the place of sacrifice. He accompanies the gods when they visit the earth, and shares in the reverence and adoration which they receive. He makes the oblations fragrant; without him the gods experience no satisfaction.

Agni is the lord, protector, king of men. He is the lord of the house, dwelling in every abode. He is a guest in every home; he despises no man, he lives in every family. He is therefore considered as a mediator between gods and men, and as a witness of their actions; hence to the present day he is worshipped, and his blessing sought on all solemn occasions, as at marriage, death, etc. In these old hymns Agni is spoken of as dwelling in the two pieces of wood which being rubbed together produce fire; and it is noticed as a remarkable thing that a living being should spring out of dry (dead) wood. Strange to say, says the poet, the child, as soon as born, begins with unnatural voracity to consume his parents. Wonderful is his growth, seeing that he is born of a mother who cannot nourish him; but he is nourished by the oblations of clarified butter which are poured into his mouth, and which he consumes.
The highest divine functions are ascribed to Agni. Although in some places he is spoken of as the son of heaven and earth, in others he is said to have formed them, and all that flies or walks, or stands or moves. He formed the sun, and adorned the heavens with stars. Men tremble at his mighty deeds, and his ordinances cannot be resisted. Earth, heaven, and all things obey his commands. All the gods fear, and do homage to him. He knows the secrets of mortals, and hears the invocations that are addressed to him.

The worshippers of Agni prosper, are wealthy, and live long. He watches with a thousand eyes over the man who brings him food, and nourishes him with oblations. No mortal enemy can by any wondrous power gain the mastery over him who sacrifices to this god. He carries men across calamities, as a ship over the sea. He commands all the riches in earth and heaven; hence he is invoked for riches, food, deliverance, and in fact all temporal good. He is also prayed to as the forgiver of sins that may have been committed through folly. All gods are said to be comprehended in him; he surrounds them as the circumference of a wheel does the spokes.

In a celebrated hymn of the Rig-Veda, attributed to Vasishtha, Indra and the other gods are called upon to destroy the Kravyāds (the flesh-eaters), or Rākshas, enemies of the gods. Agni himself is a Kravyād, and as such takes an entirely different character. He is then represented under a form as hideous as the beings he, in common with the other gods, is called upon to devour. He sharpens his two iron tusks, puts his enemies into his mouth, and devours them. He heats the edges of his shafts, and sends them into the hearts of the Rākshasas.

There are four Vedas: the Rig Veda, the Sama Veda, the Yajur Veda and the Atharva Veda. You all know that the Rig Veda is our most ancient, most profound, most sacred and most hallowed scripture. In the Rig Veda you will read about Indra, the lord of the gods, who is considered the most important and most powerful of the cosmic gods. Next to him is Agni. In the Rig Veda, Agni is the first of the cosmic gods to be invoked; our Hindu scriptures start with Agni, not Indra.

He is at once three different priests. First he is the priest who prays. He is praying on our behalf, on behalf of the earth-consciousness. Then he is the officiating priest, which resembles what we might call the minister in a church. He officiates at the divine sacrifice on our behalf. In his third aspect, Agni is the priest who bestows the divine wealth upon us. In this role, he carries our aspiration to the Highest and brings down the message of the Highest for us. He is like a spiritual Master who enters into his disciple’s ignorance, carries it up into the Highest and then brings down God’s Peace, Light and Bliss. The Master is a messenger and Agni also plays the part of a messenger. He takes our human aspiration to the Absolute Supreme and brings Divine Grace down into unlit and crying humanity.

Agni is very often associated with Indra. It is mentioned at times in the Rig Veda that Agni and Indra are twin brothers. But the one who performs the spiritual rites and religious duties most successfully is Agni. Some spiritual Masters say that Agni takes human aspiration to the Highest in the form of power, while Indra brings down Light into the earth atmosphere. Simultaneously they move; one goes up and the other comes down.

Full of divine energy and divine vigour is this lord, Agni. You will see boundless willpower within him and around him. The dynamic form of Agni is, at times, associated with Rudra, the Terrible, with the Thunder aspect of the Supreme. Rudra and Agni are friends. They go together. We see Rudra in the cosmic god Agni in his aspect of dynamic law.

On Agni’s appearance: “One will see different forms of the gods, according to one’s own individual realisation. For example, when someone invokes the power aspect of Agni, then in the vital world he sees Agni with his tongue out and his hair a mass of flames. But another aspirant, invoking the benevolent aspect of the god, will see Agni as a benign, glowing deity full of luminous, compassionate power. A third aspirant, after committing some serious moral blunder in the physical plane and thinking that the god will be terribly displeased with him, meets Agni’s destructive and angry form. But the real Agni, in his highest consciousness and in his nitya rupa, or eternal form, will appear in front of a seeker in normal human form with two arms, two legs and so on. He will look tall and very beautiful.

“O Agni, O Fire God,
lead us along the right path
so that we can enjoy the fruits
of our divine actions.
You know, O God, all our deeds.
O God, take away from us all our
unaspiring and binding sins and
destroy them.
To You we offer our teeming,
soulful salutations and prayers,
to you we offer.”

Heart’s aspiration is the right path.
God’s Compassion is the genuine guidance.
The fruits of our divine actions are Peace, Light and Bliss.
Sin is the smile of self limiting bondage.
In our prayers and salutations abides God the illumining Saviour.

Agni is loved by all and sundry, irrespective of age. Sometimes you will notice that an elderly gentleman is admired and adored by his colleagues, whereas new generations find it difficult to appreciate his genius. The old and the new do not go together. But in the case of Agni, it is not like that. The second verse in the Rig Veda tells us that Agni is adored and worshipped by the ancient sages and, at the same time, by the newly-born seekers. He can please a little child and he also can please an octogenarian.

In conclusion, I would like to say that Agni is a household god in the sense that Agni is cherished most in the family either to fulfil desire or to fulfil aspiration. He is called “Griha Pati” or “Griha Swami”, lord of the house. He is lord of the house and also guest of the house. He is the supreme guest. The sages felt the necessity of cherishing and adoring Agni all the time because they felt that there was no end to their aspiration and that Agni was the only answer to their aspiration. At the same time, they came to realise that the flame of aspiration could be kindled by Agni alone. We need Agni to kindle the flames of aspiration and, at the same time, we need Agni to achieve our highest realisation.
Agni is never old. He is ever young and he is being reborn every day. When we kindle the flame of aspiration early in the morning, Agni takes birth. He is a newborn babe. Then again, he is the most ancient god because he is the first priest mentioned in the Rig Veda:

O Flame! Master Strength! O Leader! You gather around you all the peoples of the world and bind them together. You burn bright in the high seat of Revelation. You bring us all the Riches.

Agni is human aspiration and divine realisation all at once. If you would like to repeat the name Agni silently a few times early in the morning, then you are bound to feel the climbing flame of aspiration within you. Please repeat ‘Agni’ most soulfully, most devotedly; then you will feel the bumper crop of divine realisation within you.″


Find more on Agni here:

Guardian of Children

I feel that Loki genuinely adores and protects innocence, sweetness and purity – all qualities of a child’s heart.

A thing that I learned having Loki around is that He loves children. Maybe it is His own childlike nature, His love, lightness, sense for mischief and humour or the fact that He is the father of quite a few different and seemingly unusual children – Loki seems to adore children’s innocence and sweetness. I can feel His love for those pure creatures who are still so connected with their hearts and souls. Loki especially enjoys to see a child’s smile.
I do not have children of my own and have sometimes found it difficult to interact with them, feeling self-conscious and shy. Children can pick up your vulnerabilities and can be brutally honest – like Loki Himself – as they voice their opinions without thinking and often to the embarrassment of the grown-ups. Ever since Loki has made an appearance in my life, I have opened up to children and learned to genuinely appreciate them and the feeling seems to be reciprocal as I earn a lot of smiles these days. I relate mostly to their sweetness.
I believe that Loki brings us closer to our own childlike nature, closer to our heart. Children live and act from their heart. They see the world as a place full of love and magic, until they learn to believe something else. Loki cares especially for those children who suffer. He understands the pain or troubles of a child’s heart and can act as their protector and guardian. To grown-ups He might seem erratic and unpredictable, yet to a child He is a friend who is on the same level. Children can really relate to Loki and I feel that He helps and heals them. He also does not seem to like it when people belittle children and appears to encourage respectful and loving interaction with children … and loving interaction between human beings in general.

Loki is a God of laughter, joy and mischief. This part of him teaches me to see the humorous side of life, to see good in everything and to smile or laugh away my problems. To look at experiences with the lightness and curiosity of a child. In my opinion, there is probably no other God who would be more fun to have around when you are a child.

On an inner level this particular God works with our inner child and I guess that is what makes him so skilled in healing trauma. Loki shelters, protects and nurtures our inner child and thus allows us feel secure within ourselves.

Children are the bearers of Light, of consciousness in a pure, uncorrupted form. They live inside there hearts, unaware of the separation of the mind, that corrupts us adults. Children live in the moment and in trust that they will be looked after. Something that Loki pushes me to do – trust God, trust in a higher force to look after me. He urges me to take responsibility for my life and learn to flow with what comes along rather than planning things and trying to control outcomes. Seize the moment. Trust that things will fall into place and move forward.

Loki Himself seems to view the world with the innocence of a child even though He has a brilliant mind. To me He is the perfect union of the heart and the mind or maybe it is the illumination of the mind through the heart, as Loki’s actions often are (even though some would disagree on this) actions of selfless love and sacrifice. He uses His cunning for a greater good and always faces the consequences of His actions – taking responsibility for whatever He does.

Who can blame Him for having a bit of fun and making the most of life? After all, he is fully conscious of his power and of who He is.

Loki and the Dark Goddess

The Great Mother Goddess is the dark primordial womb that brought forth all creation.

Loki is intimately connected to the Divine Feminine. He is the keeper and wielder of sexual energy or Kundalini – the creative force of the universe – and embodies compassion and love like only a mother could. Another aspect that connects Him closely to the Hindu God Shiva.

I believe Loki to be a God of Fire and terrifying natural forces like Storms, yet I would often see and feel water when meditating on Him. The Divine Feminine is represented by water, lakes and rivers and her guardians are serpents (in Indian culture these serpent beings are called Nagas, in Maori culture the spirits associated with water are giant serpents called Taniwha). Loki is part of the Goddess as  much as She is part of Him and, like Rudra is said to bless the land with rain, or the sacred river Ganga springs from Lord Shiva’s head, Loki has a deep connection with water because it represents the divine feminine, the Great Goddess.

The Goddess of pure power is called Shakti, the universal life force that flows through all of creation. She is a dynamic force that is at once terrifying, destructive, creative, life-giving and life-saving. She is the Kundalini, the Mother Power and Shiva/Loki is the wielder of this power. Kundalini is sexual energy, very potent life-energy and in many cultures this force is also referred to as Serpent power. Loki is a Master of the Kundalini, one who can direct it so that its fire does not destroy us. He can help us to grow a tree within us to ground ourselves into earth as well as heaven, and let the fire nourish and illumine the tree so that the snake can travel. Thus it is Loki who is able to free us from our primitive urges and transform them into something higher.

The love between the Dark Goddess and Loki is deep, because they really are part of each other and I feel that Loki has suffered greatly from the imbalance of energies on earth. For a long time the masculine energy has dominated humanity, now, at the beginning of a new cycle, the sacred feminine is returning and with it comes creativity, arts, oneness, love and compassion. Loki will be able to reunite fully with His beloved Goddess, the Goddess who is the Mother of all creation.

The Divine Feminine embraces both Light and Darkness. And in a time where a wrathful bachelor God rules the Western World, it is not surprising that Loki is finding  many supporters and devotees, because in a way He represents the Divine Feminine more than any other God (in the Western world). Maybe that is why Loki has been slandered by Christianity? Like the treacherous serpent that persuades Eve to taste the forbidden fruit? Hmm. Loki awakens our own power and teaches us compassion (both aspects of the Goddess) towards ourselves and others. He has a loving, tender-hearted nature, as well as a fierce and fiery one. The Great Mother Goddess, Adi Shakti, represents the fiercest force in the universe – in many stories of Hindu mythology it is the force of Shakti that time and again rescues the Gods by slaying the demons who threaten them. Add Shakti is the energy that is the very essence of our being. It is the dark and light, the beautiful and the ugly, the tender and the fierce, the powerful and the compassionate. In western religious culture the ideal woman is seen as pure, virtuous, sweet, beautiful (and weak) – while the Truth is that the Feminine Force in this universe is much more complex. Softness, sweetness, mildness, compassion are all desirable feminine qualities, when they are realised as something powerful and beautiful instead of something weak that fosters our (female) need for protection. We (females) need to remember that we bear abundant power within us and have no need to manipulate men, nor possess anyone or be possessed by them. We need to find ways to claim back our power. Loki definitely comes to aid here.

In ancient times women were thought to be able to access the power of the Goddess more easily than men because they could more easily identify with Her. Long ago women were regarded as the mediators between the Goddess and her children. Later, when the masculine force became imbalanced by the male desire for power and control, men relegated women to a lower class, caused in part by their fear of women’s “magic” — particularly the ability to give birth, the blood, and intuitive gifts. Violence against women increased as men who felt powerless resorted to rape. Nowadays many men are stuck playing tough roles and many women learned that submission and passivity are their tickets to survival. Domesticated females often seek power through pleasing (manipulating) men and baring children. One of the female dramas is the need to be needed paired with the need to be protected. While the male urge is to protect and procreate. Sexual energy is not intended as a tool for power, pleasure or simply reproduction. It is a sacred energy. On a higher level, sexual energy or Kundalini is a quest for wholeness – unity of the male and female inside of ourselves.

Not all women were (and are) meant to be mothers. The sacred females (or sacred virgins) of the past, daughters of the Great Goddess, acted as priestesses, sorceresses, prophets, and healers before they were pursued and often killed. Interestingly enough the original meaning of the word “virgin” is essentially “a woman who claims ownership of herself”, while harlots (or whores) were priestesses of the Goddess who offered their bodies in the holy act of a sacred marriage. Tantric traditions today are revering the Kundalini’s sacredness and the union of the the Divine female and male (Shakti and Shiva).

The masculine and feminine aspect of creation need to be in balance and as long as one of them is overpowering, they both suffer. Neither of them is inferior or superior.

Loki came to me as a teacher and a healer, and while I thought He came to heal the feminine side of my nature, I now understand that He also heals the unbalanced masculine. He embodies both aspects. In my experience of Him, He can be extremely compassionate and loving, even indulging in his affections for me like a parent, yet at times He also plays out a dominant and possessive side. Whatever needs healing inside me, Loki represents. He is duality and union at once. Sometimes I feel Him not even as a separate entity but as part of me, clearly looking at aspects of myself that need attention. The more I learn to trust Him and love Him, the deeper the healing goes.

I believe that Loki heals trauma and thus he helps the feminine and masculine energy of this planet to heal. So maybe this is the reason why there is such a large amount of Loki’s “spouses” out there in the blogger-world? In my experience Loki meets us on the level we are on – and he has a tendency to stir up all those beliefs we hold, that have to do with shame and guilt, dark, forbidden desires  – which, I guess, has brought Him a bit of a “bad boy” reputation. Everything that gets suppressed in our longing to be “good”, every belief of “unworthiness” and anything we cannot accept as our own, Loki finds and brings to the surface. He also satisfies our need to feel loved and sheltered – and He can actually fulfil all these needs. In my opinion, Loki is out there, wreaking havoc in the blogger world (yes, I am including my humble self here) – yet I do agree with Lokeans (and I do not claim to be one, even though Loki has touched my life in a most profound way) that simply fantasising about this God does not make one a Lokean.

And then … it is Loki we are talking about. Unbound. Free. And beyond mental or moral concepts.